“Every hated enemy, every moment she’d been powerless against them simmered to the surface. And with each movement of the sword, each breath, a thought formed. It echoed with every inhale, every thrust and block. Never again. Never again would she be weak.“
What’s the last book that brought you to tears?
TW: talks of rape, abuse, depression, suicide, language and sexual content
I knew being back into Velaris would be everything I needed. ACOTAR was my intro into fantasy and I was ready to fall in love in, to read about romance.
I wasn’t ready for this book.
Silver Flames is the reality of the voices in our heads. Of not being good enough, of wishing for something different.
It’s the demons we’ve faced, held on to and harbored so no one would know how broken we really are.
It’s the words we lashed out to someone we loved because the pain and feeling of being undeserving over powered rationality.
It’s being a woman in a world of men… being looked over, forgotten or used.
It’s love… felt often but not easily given and sometimes what’s given is below what your partner deserves.
It’s the patiences that your family and loved ones have when you are not your best.
It’s the breaking to be made… made into something that is not perfect, but worthy. Finally finding validation in yourself… not because someone gave it to you.
It’s the toxic relationship you have with yourself where 90% of the words you hear in your head are in fact fiction.
It’s sex… raw, enjoyable and freely given to the one you love and the beauty of it…. not romanticizing the act but seeing it as pleasure.
It’s friendship and the power of unity…. the power of having four quarters that are equivalent to 100 pennies.
It’s beautiful and heartbreaking and it hit me HARD.
Nesta was probably the most hated character in FANTASY history with her poor attitude, rude comments, and how she treated Cassian, but now you will know WHY.
The power of the voices in our own heads is shown through Nesta and you can’t help but relate or finally understand. The shell that hides her is hard and relentless… but inside she is broken, afraid, and unkind to herself. Unworthy of love or forgiveness. Alone.
Cassian… although our sexy bruiting bat boy is imperfect, I wasn’t ready to fall in love with him and his amazing bleeding heart.
The Prince of Bastards is now the Prince of Underdogs… and he will give all of himself to help those who need him… especially someone he loves, the ones who need to be free from their shackles.
also….. my cheeks were REEEEEDDDD with these WIDE OPEN door scenes. There was no DEBT unpaid.
Silver Flames was more than was expected but everything I needed. It has officially taken first place in my heart and I feel bad for any book that follows here after. Sorry 2021 TBR pile.
Thank you SJM for your rawness and sharing your voice through your characters. I felt it. I Stand with you.
story:⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ (all the stars I could ever give)
characters:⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ (the inner court will forever be my tribe)
cry meter: 😭😭😭😭 (in an almost 800 page book I cried 5 times)
steam: Bridgerton is vanilla my friends
Here is a playlist I made for this lovely book. I may add some… I may take some away… either way…. I hope you enjoy it.